joie de vivre

Well behaved women never make history. That's my favorite line for now. Well describes my persona.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Are we impotent?

I would like to share an article (if I may call it) written by Manjari based on her own experience. The reason I want to share this with everyone is the fact that when I was reading this article, it seemed like Manjari stole all the words from my mouth before I could even say anything on the issue. I can't agree more with her on this. And I'm sure that'd be the case with most of the other women in Delhi who frequently use the public transport. Please note: What happened with Manjari was not an extreme event but something that happens "oh so often" with a woman in Delhi. Surprisingly! Read on...

What does the word "impotent" mean? In normal language we associate it with non performance in sexual realtionships. So men and women who are unable to "perform" are called impotent. More men than women fall in this category of human beings and most men who secretly or openly are impotent suffer a great deal of denigration with it. I would draw your attention to this word in an alltogether different sense. We as human beings are impotent, because, we have no potency to perform and to act except where it is most safe to do so. If we find weak people around us we can assert, dominate and manipulate. If there are people at par with us we can negotiate and if they are superior to us then we cooperate. The question arises till when or till what level.
Our conscious for all reasons has committed suicide for want of a hearing by our own selves and our self respect is flexible enough to withstand any pinching of this now diminished conscious. So what remains in our tattered bodies which we proudly display in full splendour of our flesh polished with nothing but a false sense of being. Today I was going in a DTC bus, a fairly crowded bus at 9 am in the morning . A man, well dressed was standing besides me. People were moving forward and backward as usually happens in any bus in Delhi. In this scene this man started masturbating. The moment I realized this I kicked him in his groin and as he turned on his back, on his behind. From the middle of the bus till the end I kicked this guy but not one person in this crowded bus could see anything strange in this happenning to catch hold of him, the conductor was faithfully doing his duty to earn his good salary from the govt. and the equally inert public was watching the scene unnfold so later they can laud the jhansi ki rani. Irrespective of the crowd the guy managed to get away and the public began the post mortem in earnest. The guys from behind-"arre you let the guy get away, I wasnt there in the front or I would have caught him", the conductor-"aree roz ki baat hai, hame to naukre karni hai", the guys in front-"piche walon ki maan behen nahi hain na, aree namard hain saale", lady besides me-"aurtain bas chup ho jaat hain tabhi toh...arre doob maro ladies ne peet diya", uncle ji besides me-"kya hua haat lagaya kya, itna mara use."
Every thing is a matter for gossip, no harm, then why cry when the same robbers who killed our neighbours break open our safe. We are impotent as a species and our daily endeavour is to prove it beyond doubt.
Let everyone read so no one can be in doubt of their celebrity status.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Don't want to regret...

Well no it's no good news but still it just made my day and will maybe help me going for a few more days.. (after that I would definitely need some more appreciation). Have been at this workplace (an advertising agency) for exactly a week now and the only thing I ever did was go thru this huge book of award winning ads and work on a couple of products as in making ads for them [unfortunately none of my ideas clicked my boss(es)]. But today was my day....was given a brief and I produced results (well good results) much before it was due. No I am not saying these are publish quality ads neither am I very satisfied with them but these are just what they (boss) were looking for to be sent to the client for approval. Now, whether they are published or no is secondary what just did make my day was appreciation :). This led me to think a lil on if it wasn't this appreciation then what exactly did keep me here for the past one week- it wasn't money ofcourse (I am not getting paid as for now- just a trainee), neither was advertising my passion (passion is one reason for which people can work endlessly n without remuneration atleast for a while- I did it once for my passion so I know), it was definitely not an amazing working atmosphere (atleast I recd a culture shock on my first day when people left, right and center were just abusing each other and not just abusing but ABUSING and I was ragged- what kinda workplace does it to a new trainee?). But after a couple of days I kinda adjusted but still do not feel like a 'fit' here...though the positives being this kinda informal atmosphere really helps...it's just hard initially after that you become one of them- bindaas. This reminds me of a conversation I had with one of my friends regarding this abusive working atmosphere where nobody cares about who's around and offences. He was of the view that it wouldn't have been all that bad and hard for him to digest since that was very normal in his college so since there wouldn't have been much difference between the two it would have rather been easier for him to adjust. Which made me say strongly enough to get my point across that, " there is a huge difference between college life and a workplace, they are not meant to be the same and thus workplace deserves a certain amount of discipline and decency. Some decorum should be maintained." To which he agreed.
Anyways coming back to the reason for sticking here- I guess one reason could be that it's a big organization, a big name (for me this means more exposure), interesting work (advertising has always interested me but somehow it never became a passion till now), but I think most importantly the fact that from day 1, each and every person I met had something to say (each one had their story and each one definitely had something to give for you to gain and learn). I think that's what has left me craving for more and more .....going deeper and deeper in this pool of knowledge. And ofcourse the primary reason for me to come here at the first place and sticking on despite knowing that "I may not be a fit for advertising", being my funda for trying everything out before rejecting it so that later when I do make the decision of precisely what I want to build a career in, I should have a clear idea as to what am I passionate about and where I am a misfit. Dont want to regret such a big decision ever thinking, "oh! I didn't try that, maybe I would have fared well there." So though I don't have much time to take that decision, I am going to make the most of whatever opportunity I have or get.
Moral of the blog being: think, think and think harder along with trying to justify your decision before making it, lest you regret it.
Wot say?